Thursday, May 16, 2013

#NEWRELEASE ~ 2 NEW #Shortstories and Random Star Trek Geekery...

Two new short(ish) stories...well, one is really a novella, I guess...that I wanted to share on here. One of them I put out about two weeks ago without saying boo, so I thought I'd make people aware of it now (grin) and the other that just went up yesterday...


LOW TIDE (approximately 7.500 words) ~

This is a love story, mainly..but also a time travel story and an end of the world story. I never seem to be able to disentangle love from some sort of cataclysmic, world-ending event. What does that say about me, I wonder? :)

Synopsis

Jolie and Nathan have been in love since they first met, back at MIT where they were both enrolled as “accelerated students,” a few years before either of them could legally drive. When the military-funded, ‘time-space anomaly’ project they’re working on for Black Arrow Industries in White Sands, New Mexico goes bad, it might be only their love for one another that can save them...and possibly everyone else in the world from a quieter kind of apocalypse, too. A science fiction time-travel story about love, marriage and remembering who you really are.

This one is only on sale at Amazon.com right now, although I'll be creating a paperback version too, that should show up pretty quick on other outlets. I'm going to be distributing everywhere for this one in three months, I just thought I'd try giving Amazon exclusive rights for one quarter.


The Image of My Own Death (approx. 6,000 words) ~

This is kind of a creepy one, and a bit different from my "usual" type thing, if there is a usual type thing. In it, the not-hero has found a way to re-experience events, in all of their salacious glory, by using photographs to travel back in time to that particular moment (in a sense). The problem? He's a serial killer...or at least, his 'peculiar tastes' run very much in that direction.

Synopsis:

What if the last man whose mind you'd ever want to be inside could do a form of time travel and re-experience the life of anyone they want, just by looking at a photograph? In this dark fantasy, meet our not-hero, who, while he claims he's never killed anyone with his own hands, may or may not be a serial killer anyway. But even serial killers get bored, especially when they run out of A-material, and eventually our not-hero finds himself short on his favorite kind of murder and looking for new material. When he meets Jack, another loner psychopath who shares his 'peculiar interests,' it might be a marriage made in heaven...but what does Jack want from our not-hero exactly? And is he really okay with being the one to do the crime? (Horror)

This one is available at all ebook retailers, or will be soon, (Amazon, Smashwords, Kobo, Omnilit, Barnes and Noble, DriveThru Fiction, etc.)

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Hope you like them!

I have a whole other thing I thought about writing this morning, since I'm still in mid-move and therefore kind of in that in-between position that makes it hard to start ambitious new projects, but that might have to wait for another day. It was something along the lines of - "Decadence and the Allie's War Men - What's Different About Seers?" It's something I've been thinking about a lot lately, and was going to write something along those lines, but yeah, maybe not today.

Today, I write a bit more, work on paperbacks, then finish packing and scrub down a bathroom. Ah, the glamorous life of a fiction writer!

Oh! But I AM going to see the new Star Trek movie tonight, in all of its IMAX glory, with my pal, Roy, which should be cool. We've opted for 3-D, which I haven't done since Avatar, I think, so should be exciting...or make my eyes bleed, I'm not sure which.

Have I mentioned that I kind of love Benedict Cumberbatch? I'm a HUGE Sherlock fan, but I've liked some of his creepier roles, too, including as the cad / child molester in Atonement. In my opinion, the ONLY flaw of the first JJ Abrams reboot of the Star Trek movie franchise lay in its somewhat boring and un-scary villain (sorry, Eric Bana...maybe it was the script?). In that one, it didn't really matter so much, since the focus was more on re-discovering the main characters and their origins, but for this one, they really needed some seriously clever badassery...thus, the choice of Cumberbatch, I'm assuming. :)

Either way, I'm looking forward to it, even in all of its 3-D, eye-popping madness. I may have to get a big bag of processed sugar, to complete the whole experience, so I can drive my friend nuts jabbering at him about inconsequential movie-making details, Star Trek trivia and the past credits of all involved...

Yes, I'm a bona fide dork. Got my certificate and everything...


Tuesday, May 14, 2013

#CaffeinatedFiction 34: The #GateShifter Series: Ch7 "Misty's Boom-Boom Room"

Okay, so here's the next installment of CAFFEINATED FICTION...it was difficult to finish this week, I admit, just because I'm getting ready to move again, and am thus in the 'bouncing off the walls' stage where it's hard to focus long enough to get much done.

Since the move is still about a week off, I'm not expecting that to diminish at all...but only to get worse. I'm now in that unfortunate period where the move is too close for me to be able to really delve into any new projects, but too far away for me to be able to get away with doing NOTHING, either, at least not without driving myself and everyone in my near vicinity completely bat-sh** crazy.

So, that being said...here is Chapter Seven of the new Gate-Shifters book, tentatively entitled CRASH-MORPH...

Usual Disclaimer for Caffeinated Fiction: This work (overall, maybe not this particular segment) contains adult content, including sexual situations, swearing and possibly even some actual (gasp!) sex. So...ye be forewarned! Otherwise, the usual things for a work in progress (WIP): there will be typos (definitely), maybe structural issues, continuity gaps, plot holes and whatever else. So if that kind of thing is going to drive you nuts, or make you grind your teeth excessively, I suggest you not read this sucker until it's gone through the editorial process and been made all nice and clean and pretty on the other side. :)



Chapter Seven:
Misty’s Boom-Boom Room


I spent the next day at the modeling agency.

I managed to leave Jake at home that time, although several of the gazelle-like models asked me about him once they recognized me, which told me that my ‘disguise’ really hadn’t been as effective as I had hoped. The down-the-nose looks I got from a couple of those same models told me that Jake hadn’t been wrong about their clothing snobbery, either.

Still, I didn’t much care about my popularity in the fashion crowd.

Hell, this was Seattle. I was practically a fashionista compared to most people in this city. I wasn’t even wearing a hoodie today.

Madame Culare herself wasn’t around most of the morning, so her assistant led me to the back room, so I could go through more of their client files, including some of the shows they’d sponsored and open calls for talent. The assistant herself seemed thrilled to see me for some reason, despite my skinny jeans and loose-hanging band t-shirt and motorcycle boots.

I couldn’t help noticing that she’d switched up her own look, too.

Instead of the previous, Blade Runner attire and weirdly plastic hairstyle from the 1940s, she reminded me more of Jessica Rabbit today, complete with shocking red hair that flowed in soft curls around her shoulders, and a low-cut, red satin dress that hung in an asymmetrical line from above her knees in front to down somewhere to mid-calf in the back. It was definite ‘va-voom’ wear, but I was beginning to think she was gay, honestly, because she definitely seemed to be batting her eyes more at me than she ever had at Jake.

I wasn’t sure if I should just let it go and be flattered, or if I should be seriously reassessing the relative butchy-ness of my own clothing.

I hadn’t told Nik where I was going, but I hadn’t last time, either, and he still showed up on the sidewalk outside the Darth Vader building. 

So I guess I shouldn’t have been all that surprised when he appeared at the door of the modeling agency’s back room only about two hours after I did, Jessica Rabbit in tow. 

He’d left with Gantry while I was still on my first cup of coffee that morning, so I’d barely seen him through my half-open eyes. He, Gantry and Irene had been sitting around the line green table devouring platefuls of eggs when I first got up, and they’d left before I’d even managed to shovel a few spatulas-ful onto my own plate.

Irene had still been pretty shaken up from her ‘visitor’ from the night before.

I ended up talking to her longer than I normally would have as a result, and didn’t get the modeling agency until around eleven o’clock that morning.

As for me and Nik, we didn’t talk any more about the lock-mate thing that night, or sex, for that matter...at least not directly. Even so, I woke up with him wrapped around me again, and naked, and pretty obviously not dreaming about ice cream.

I didn’t bother to mention to him that he wasn’t doing a lot for my ability to get a good night’s sleep at this point, either.

Instead, I forced myself out of bed when I found him missing from it, and crawled into the shower. Unfortunately, the hot water had been completely gone.

I was pretty sure Nik had done that, too. 

He still had a bit of a ‘thing’ going with the water pressure and hot water of Seattle. Considering we mostly washed in space with a kind of sticky, acidic powder that burned off skin cells and was only ‘satisfactory’ in terms of the cleaning experience more generally, I couldn’t exactly blame him. I still hadn’t gotten over the novelty of being back in the land of hot showers, either, and had to force myself to not to get pissy when I realized he’d left me with ice cold nada for the third time that week.

Now, though, seeing him in the doorway of that back room at the agency, I found myself appraising him, even as I frowned in irritation.

I could see a few of the women behind him, talking amongst themselves, and knew Nik had been a hit with the young models, too. With his symmetrical good looks and broad shoulders, that shouldn’t have surprised me, I guess, especially since he looked like Jake had been dressing him lately, down to the designer jeans and leather jacket.

It did surprise me though, if I was being honest. And irritated me.

Without even realizing it, I’d gotten pretty weird about Nik, too.

“What are you doing here?” I asked him grumpily, ignoring the irritated, scrunchy-faced frown I caught from one of the long-blond-hair types lurking in the lobby area behind him. “Didn’t we talk about this? About the low-profile thing?”

Jessica Rabbit squeezed Nik’s arm, grinning at me. She didn’t seem to have heard a word I said, much less caught the underlying tone. 

“Where do you find all of these yummy boys, Ms. Reyes?” she said. “You and your friends becoming quite the distraction here, I must say...”

Nik’s relative yumminess aside, she still batted her eyes at me as she said it.

Sighing a bit in resignation, I motioned Nik over with my head, not bothering to get up from the clean spot I’d maintained in the middle of the half-moon of files and stacks of paper that spread around me. I wasn’t about to strong-arm him out of there, and he was making it pretty clear he wasn’t going to leave me alone, either.

“Well,” I said, for Jessica Rabbit’s benefit as much as his. “If you’re going to help, then come on and help, Mr. Yummy.”

Nik quirked an eyebrow at that, but didn’t comment.

I didn’t look up again until he knelt down beside me on the patterned carpet, careful not to disturb any of the piles that sat around me in a circle. Hearing the door close behind Ms. Culare’s assistant with a soft snick, I frowned up at Nik only then.

“What are you doing here, Nik?” I said. “Can you even read English yet?”

“Not well,” he said, his face unapologetic.

“Then why are you here?”

Nik looked down at the piles of paperwork, then around at the room, including the cherry-wood conference table ringed by black, leather-padded office chairs. His eyes paused briefly on one of the modeling spreads, a blow-up of a magazine cover that took up most of the far wall by a counter with an unused coffee pot and an empty, glass water pitcher and several clean glasses. I watched him case out the entire space, and realized I’d dismissed it in a mere few seconds earlier that morning, categorizing it as ‘bland corporate conference room’ and leaving it at that. 

Nik didn’t have that particular categorization in his Earth repertoire yet, apparently.

“What have you found?” he said, a few beats later, looking back at me.

Sighing again, I bent down over the laptop I’d dragged down from the table to the floor. Positioning it in my lap, I flipped it open again, showing him the screen where I’d been sharing research with Irene for the past hour or so.

“Not much,” I admitted. “But this is kind of weird...”

I twisted the screen around to show him. I’d already given him the basics on the case the day before, so he knew roughly what I’d been looking into for the past day or so.

“So I’m looking for who might have been a contact inside here, right?” I reminded him. “For those girls who are missing? Well, we ran all of the employees, and I got nothing. So then I had Irene run a scan on some of these ‘talent show’ type events that Madam Culare’s puts on, as well as the groups sponsoring them...and I traced more than half of them back to this place.” 

I pointed at the screen, glancing up at Nik and frowning. 

“...Irene said they buried it pretty good,” I added. “It’s probably why Culare herself didn’t notice how many requests she was getting off these guys. I’m actually beginning to think they might be using her actual talent searches to find people. That fake one with the flyer I showed you might have been some kind of side gig...one of their people branching out, trying to make extra cash by using the Culare name...”

Shrugging a little, I added,

“...I haven’t been able to find anymore shows by that group, in any case. I’m thinking the real guys found out about his scam, and were worried it would expose their real operation. Whatever the case, they seem to have shut them down...”

Nik frowned with me, staring down at the same screen.

The image was meant to make me want to party, I guess. 

Or maybe, more specifically, it was supposed to make Nik and other men want to party. Or be with a bunch of girls in scanty clothing who wanted to party, too.

The website was a wash of erratic images and colors, all of them evoking the quasi-underground, ‘too-hip-to-live’ kind of vibe for rich people who were too out of the know to realize that this stuff wasn’t really hip. 

Women in low-cut tops holding up martinis and fruit-laden drinks held facial expressions somewhere between a laugh and a scream where they crowded around a chrome and black leather bar. The image in the middle formed the centerpiece of a larger, more chaotic collage, where fancy appetizer plates were juxtaposed with dance floor lights covered in girls in mini-dresses and wearing five-inch heels. Another image showed a long-haired diva, obviously drunk, who was leering at the camera from her spot in the lap of a suit-wearing guy who looked at her like he’d just won the lottery. 

Clearly, the club’s ads were made with the goal of enticing guys through the doors with their wallets in hand. I looked at the bright red text splashed across the top of the screen, and grimaced a little, realizing suddenly I recognized it.

Aw, hell. I’d been in that place before.

It was the same club where I’d picked up my little Ted Bundy in training, Michael Evers.

I’d gone there looking for him, on behalf of my client at the time, an ex-sorority chick turned law student that Evers had raped and strangled and left for dead in a ditch, about six months earlier. The girl, whose name was Christy McDonald, had come to me only after Evers got off at the trial, managing to produce not only a fake alibi (corroborated by, like, twenty other douche-bag witnesses), but also managed to make her look like a hysterical lunatic who had hurt herself on purpose and blamed him, all to get back at him for breaking up with her.

She told me she hadn’t known him before that day, though.

She also told me that it wasn’t the first time he’d done it. Apparently he’d bragged to her about how ‘he always got away with it,’ while he punched her repeatedly in the face.

That one, I hadn’t gotten from Gantry. 

Christy came to me because I went to high school with her sister. I even vaguely remembered Christy herself, who’d been a few years older than us, but so high up on the homecoming queen food chain and social roster, I couldn’t help remembering her face.

She’d been pissed, understandably, and pretty traumatized, sure...but she hadn’t been irrational, or out for blood, per se.

Her request to me was surprisingly lucid.

She wanted Evers to get busted by the police, in a way it would stick this time, so he would be put in jail for a reasonable stretch of time. Maybe long enough for Christy herself to get a few prison psychiatrists to talk to him, and see him for what he was.

So yeah, no broken kneecaps or ominous messages whispered while Gantry stuck a gun in the guy’s mouth in his bedroom in the middle of the night. No hiring someone to castrate him, or ruin his career or even beat him up. Not much of a revenge gig at all, really...Christy came across more like a concerned citizen. And, well, a lawyer.

The thing was, after seeing his behavior on their one and only date, and Evers’ attitude during the trial, Christy was pretty sure he was a psychopath. She wanted the police to know that, too, hopefully before he went full-fledged serial killer.

I gotta tell you, I’m a sucker for cases like that.

Meaning ones that are more about preventing harm than revenge. Because I’m here to tell you, you don’t always see a lot of loyalty among women when it comes to that kind of thing.

Or not as much as you might think, anyway.

More than that, I liked Christy. 

Homecoming queen or sorority girl or law school student or whatever, we had pretty much zero in common on the surface, but she had guts, and she seemed determined not to let that monster ruin her life. She must have known there was a chance Evers would still walk, even if I set him up...and that if our little sting operation could get exposed. I even warned her that if Evers caught on that he was being followed, he might be smart enough to trace me back to her, and come after her again.

She did it anyway.

Given all that, it felt like a case I couldn’t turn down.

Therefore, a few weeks after I agreed to take her money, it was in the parking lot of that same club, which had the unfortunate name of ‘Misty’s Boom-Boom Room,’ where I punched Evers in his car, not long after he’d gone caveman following my refusal to give him a blow job after I’d known him for about three minutes in that club.

Christy had warned me that he really hated it when women fought back.

Apparently, he’d told her that while he was strangling her.

He’d told the truth, it seemed. Right after I hit him, I high-tailed it out of there, but the jerk had been faster than I would have guessed, and he’d been howling and threatening me every step of the way. He nearly caught me, even before I made it to that alley Irene and I had scoped for the final showdown with the cops...and yeah, I’d been scared.

Luckily...or unluckily, depending on how you looked at it, given what happened after that...Nik had shown up in that same alley about five minutes later, while I’d been praying I could keep Evers off me long enough for the cops to show up.

“You know this place?” Nik said now, obviously picking up on some fraction of the thoughts running through my head. “You have been here before?”

“Yeah,” I said, sighing again. “And it looks like I’m going to have to go back.”


Nik insisted on coming with me, of course.

That time, I didn’t even argue.

Truthfully, even though it was the middle of the afternoon, I didn’t relish the idea of returning to Misty’s Boom-Boom Room without some pretty intense back-up. That was true even apart from the whole sex-trade angle, meaning the part about how the owners might be involved in stealing young girls who just wanted to be models––which, while yeah, a pretty lame goal, granted, shouldn’t mean they ended up being sold to rich douche bags like farm animals.

I’d also started to worry that maybe Michael Evers, aka, the wannabe Ted Bundy, had been the guy peering in at Irene while she slept the night before. I hadn’t really wanted to raise that possibility to Irene herself, but I gave Gantry a call and a head’s up, while waiting for the bus downtown and drinking tepid coffee out of Irene’s one and only travel mug.

I didn’t voice the concern to Nik directly, but he seemed to pick up on it, anyway.

Or maybe he’d just deduced the same thing as me.

In any case, he’d already told me that we would switch sleeping areas with Irene that night, and Gantry had more or less said the same thing, and that he’d have someone watching our house all day and that night, too, just to be sure.

They both seemed to think Evers was likely to make himself more of a pain in my ass, rather than less. Personally, however, I found myself thinking that was one contract I still wanted to find some way to fulfill. I knew my original client probably long ago wrote me off as dead, and I wanted to find some way to get in touch with her, too, and let her off the ethical hook for putting me in the line of fire of that jerk-off in the first place.

She’d never paid me the second half of that contract, but, as far as I was concerned, I hadn’t earned it yet, either.

Even so, I wasn’t sure how to go about tackling the Evers problem head on, right now, that is. Meaning, while I had a shape-shifting alien living in my friend’s apartment with me, and with both of us trying to lay low to keep from being picked up by the authorities. I still hadn’t gotten in touch with any of my old pals in the Seattle PD, either, for the same reason. I honestly wasn’t sure how good an idea it was to have me back on the radar of the authorities, and moreover, I didn’t want them making some kind of deal about me having been missing. I knew Gantry probably faced the same problem at this point, since most people knew he’d been looking for me for the past year or so, too, so sooner or later, I would need to come up with a halfway convincing story.

For now, though, Gantry told me to do my best to lay low. He said it would be better to do all of this once Nik had more info on what Razmun and the other morph were doing, and I wholeheartedly agreed with him.

That being said, it didn’t help me much, in terms of what to do about Evers.

It also struck me as sort of ludicrous, given my current client, who had me poking my nose into the doings of the local Russian mafia, most likely, and into an illegal trade that yeah, I despised, but that was generally heavily funded and had a lot of people on the payroll, including some in government and the police and whatever else...although no one wanted to talk about that either. I knew I really stood in danger of pissing the wrong people off right now, though, intentionally or not, which might make the whole “laying low” thing kind of a pipe dream, too, once they noticed me poking around.

Gantry agreed with me, when I brought it up with him.

I think, truthfully, he was kind of regretting he’d handed me Madam Culare’s card at all at this point, even apart from the fact that it caused me to run smack into Evers, and practically on my first day leaving the house since I got back.

So yeah, when I walked into that dank nightclub with its cheesy, colored, light-up tile dance floor and giant disco ball, my brain was pretty much spinning. I was also pretty much revved up for a fight. I tried to keep it off my expression as well as I could. I even gave Nik a lecture about staying chill, too, not being too aggressive with anyone in there, no matter what we found...but I doubt it did much good, for either of us. More than anything, I felt a lot like I was walking back into a lion’s den after I’d already been swatted a good one by that same lion.

Some people might have even said it was one of those, “wow, you never learn,” things.

They would probably be right.


The place was just as tacky and horrible and faintly reeking of ‘Girls Gone Wild’ as I remembered it. 

Misty’s Boom-Boom Room was definitely one of those ‘made for guys’ kind of places. Right by the door, before I’d even left the swath of sunlight left by the hanging dark plastic Nik held apart behind me and entered the dark reaches beyond, I saw a bunch of neon pink and yellow flyers tacked to the inside wall, most of them advertising ‘free drink nights for the ladies’ and wet t-shirt contests. I also saw ‘Bring a Hot BFF’ night and ‘Jello Wrestling,’ which pretty much summed up what I remembered of the vibe from when I’d been in here the last time. The bar’s promotional nights were overtly centered on anything and everything to get as many hot, horny (and probably insecure) young girls vying for male attention into the door as possible. 

The giant, padded door had a bit of an S&M vibe to it, but mostly, it evoked that whole ‘man cave’ vibe I’d gotten the last time, and that reminded me of bachelor pads from the eighties and nineties. Meaning, a lot of leather and chrome and black furniture and black sheets and black whatever else, with a number of pieces of ‘art’ that depicted nude women and/or semi-clad women in various poses.

Unfortunately, it smelled like a man cave, too...or maybe a gym locker room.

Well, a gym locker room where a lot of guys and gals had barfed up copious amounts of beer and spirits...too much, over time, to completely scrub out of the leather, wood and tile floors. 

Truthfully, I really hate that stale beer smell. I have friends who love it, who associate that whole ‘bar reek’ with partying and having a good time, but I guess I’d worked the other side of those counters too many times. I more associated the smell with cleaning up after these jokers at three o’clock in the morning...usually after watching a least one bar fight over baseball or politics or a girl who didn’t like either of them, which devolved into swinging pool cues at one another’s heads or something equally stupid to make their respective points.

Then again, I’d worked bars mainly in New York.

The Seattle crowd was pretty different, or so everyone told me, but truthfully, I was skeptical. Drunken stupidity struck me as a pretty universal thing, but maybe I hadn’t spent enough time drunk in Seattle to collect enough data.

Those years in New York had been rough, anyway. That had been when our mother took off with Alejandro for a few months, and me and Jake got shipped to our father. Dear old dad, needless to say, hadn’t been all that thrilled to see us at his apartment door in Queens, although I’m sure he did his best for us, once he realized what had happened. 

I was pretty sure that was when Jake startled hustling, too, probably from watching me tend bar and our father work a bank job he hated just so he could play clubs and night in the Upper West Side and Brooklyn. In some ways, I can’t say I even blame him. It’s not like women hadn’t been throwing money at Jake, even without him looking for it.

“What are we looking for, precisely?” Nik asked from next to me.

Jerking my mind back to the present, I refocused on the room, taking in the pool tables in a back alcove, a scattering of leather booths that receded into darkness, the low stage, where presumably the jello wrestling and the wet t-shirt contests took place, the dance floor with the lighting up squares of color where people stood.

It was only about two o’clock in the afternoon, but the place already had about half of its booths filled. I wondered if it was an out-and-out strip club during the day or something, and they were just between sets. The music was certainly a mixture of bad house music and seventies porn. But I knew my attitude wasn’t helping me get a good look at the place, so I tried to strip my feelings from the whole thing, get a sense of who was even here.

What was I looking for exactly? Evers? 

A sign that read: To buy newly-kidnapped girls as sex slaves, talk to this guy...you’ll know him from the big Russian KGB hat and the mirrored shades...?

“What are we looking for?” Nik asked me again.

I sighed a bit, shaking my hair out of my face, and shoving my hands into the pockets of my leather jacket. “Let’s get a drink,” I told him.

“A drink.” He turned his eyes on me, and I saw they were a dark green, edging into fight territory for him. “You are thirsty, Dakota?”

I rolled my eyes at him, I couldn’t help it. “Nik, you gotta learn to either blend, or stop talking when we’re in public...okay?”

He frowned a little in puzzlement, but only nodded. “Okay,” he said.

I walked over to the bar, and slid onto one of the high stools. Nik followed after me, and did the same to my right. I found myself looking around the club as I waited for the bartender to notice us, and again assessed the clusters of people I could already see filling a number of the leather booths. One held a pair of business men in outdated suits, each of them clutching beers and one of them doing most of the talking. Guy going through a divorce, my mind interpreted, seeing the ring finger he kept touching that was absent a ring. His friend was obviously there for a good sympathy binge, which was a pretty good friend since it wasn’t even the middle of the afternoon on a weekday.

The next booth held three guys in what I would categorize as ‘newly-Western’ chic. Meaning, they probably weren’t from the US, and probably hadn’t even lived here that long, but they wanted to look like they were. 

All three of them wore black designer jeans with black leather belts and tucked in black t-shirts, cheesy leather jackets with brighter slogans on them, and leather shoes that looked like Italian knock-offs with pulled up black socks. They could be Eastern European, I guessed, or maybe even German...although Germans didn’t tend to go so much for the all-black. 

All three of them drank vodka, which sort of added credence to the Eastern European thing. From working bars in Queens, I happened to know the vodka-Russian-Eastern European stereotype wasn’t just a stereotype...they really did drink that stuff like water, especially the more recent immigrants. They told me that in Russia, you never saw drinks in people’s hands in bars...just people (men, usually) talking and smoking. The waitresses brought around trays covered in shot glasses periodically and they downed them and paid for them right in front of her, then went back to talking and smoking.

That image always stuck with me for some reason.

The third occupied booth I saw was filled with a bunch of guys from India...or maybe Pakistan. They also had that ‘recent immigrant’ look, but they seemed a bit less self-conscious about it for some reason. Maybe they just weren’t trying so hard to look like they were born here. Either way, they smiled a lot more and drank mostly beer. The impression I got from watching them was that they were just thrilled being in a place where they could drink and look at pictures of naked girls in the middle of the day.

The fourth booth had an actual couple in it, but my cynical mind wondered immediately if she was a working girl, when I saw the age difference between them. He looked more like a run of the mill businessman though, like one of the suits I saw at the Darth Vader building earlier that day. Glancing around at the two older guys on the other end of the bar, it struck me that the clientele was pretty different than what I remembered being in here at night.

I remembered that from working bars, too, though. Any place that was open as close to 24 hours as they could pull off had different crowds, depending on the time of day. The day crowd sometimes remained when the night crowd showed up, but they got buried under the general clamor of the people who showed up only to get drunk at night. Even among them, there were the ‘regulars,’ the ‘walk-ins’ and the non-working-hours drunks. The true daytime regulars were usually alcoholics true, with the occasional drug dealer and prostitute thrown in for good measure, as well as the walk-ins like divorce guy (situational drunk) and the strange tourist drunks from India or Yemen or wherever they were from.

My eyes got pulled off the tables when the bartender reached our end of the lacquer, chrome and leather masterpiece, and put down two cocktail napkins. He barely grunted a reply when I ordered two beers, and he set them down without telling us how much they cost. I guess people normally ran up tabs in there, or handed him credit cards, but I did neither, slapping down a twenty and hoping for the best. He gave me change, which was a relief, really.

I spent a few more minutes sipping the beer and watching the people in the various booths in the mirror behind the bar––another trick I learned in my bartending days, in that it was always a good idea to know what was going on around you without actually staring, especially in New York––when I heard a faint choking sound next to me and turned.

Nik was staring at his pint of beer, an odd expression on his face.

It struck me suddenly that maybe alcohol and the ability to shape-shift weren’t such a great combination.

“You don’t have to drink it,” I told him sympathetically. “Tastes pretty bad, eh?”

He gave me a wan smile, then followed my eyes to the mirror. 

Again, I saw him take in every aspect of our surroundings carefully.

His eyes paused carefully on each specimen in the assortment of tall and squat bottles and glasses standing in neat rows directly across from us, as well as their different labels, liquid levels and colors. It struck me for the second time that day, that Nik might actually notice a great deal more than me, in terms of details––if only because he was less likely to dismiss a good percentage of those details due to previously-held biases and cultural myopia and whatever else. I started to think about how I might use that, when Nik nudged me with his arm.

“Something is happening,” he told me.

I glanced towards the spot of mirror where he was focused, and saw one of the Eastern Europeans on a cell phone. I wondered at first, what Nik meant, and then I realized two things. The guy wasn’t speaking English, but some kind of slavic language, which told me I’d been right in pegging their basic stats...and two, that he was pissed off at whoever was on the other end of the line.

I listened to him grumble and snarl at the guy for a few minutes, glancing at Nik. Again, I had to think he probably paid more attention to tone and body language than I did, too.

“You are distracting me, Dakota,” he told me quietly.

Even so, his fingers paused to caress my arm.

Which, truthfully, I found pretty distracting, too.

Even so, I found myself wondering again, what we were doing here.

I didn’t really want to approach those guys, or even ask the bartender or the manager about modeling shows or whatever, not without a better cover than, well...none. Really, I wasn’t sure if I wanted to approach them at all, even with a decent cover. I didn’t really want them to know my face, or get a name from me they might be able to trace back to, well...me. 

So yeah, I was gathering impressions, sure, but I was beginning to question how useful this little field trip was. I was in over my head, I guess, and I knew it.

Maybe I needed to get Gantry in on this one, for real, that is.

Maybe I was just a big chicken, taking this case but not really committing to it.

Truthfully, not a lot scared much more than a well-financed foreign mafia that might not mind just whacking a chick who annoyed them, especially if she got to close to their favorite cookie jars. I found myself wondering what my real options were in this case, even if I did manage to trace it back to the guy running this whole scam. I could try to get the FBI involved, through Gantry or whoever, but it would just be a tip, probably, since I wasn’t too confident I could get close enough to their real operation without getting myself killed.

I glanced at Nik, about to tell him it was time to go, when someone else walked through the door from the street. They moved aside the plastic flaps separating the foyer from the main floor even as I heard the squeak of that heavy, S&M door as it started to close behind him. Even so, the man who entered moved faster than the door did, and those hanging strips let in a brief but disorienting scattering of sun-rays before falling back into place in thick, rubbery strips that blocked the light.

Seeing the face that appeared there, I felt my heart start hammering violently in my chest, hard enough that I worried it might crack a rib.

The man I stared at was pretty much the last person I expected to see here. He was also maybe the most unwelcome one I could imagine on Earth at that particular moment...even including Michael Evers, budding psychopath extraordinaire.

For it was Razmun, the leader of the rebellion of free, shape-shifting morph originating from the planet of Vilandt, who now stood surveying the same dark space that me and Nik occupied.

**

End of Segment ~ To be Continued Next Week...


Monday, May 13, 2013

"What Makes a Good Critique Buddy?" and #Updates on #Giveaways...

Just a quick thing - here's a post I wrote a little while ago that went up yesterday (May 12th), about what makes a good critique buddy. I totally forgot about it, to be honest, with Mother's Day and the new Allie's War book, which is my bad...hope you enjoy!

What Makes a Good Critique Buddy? on Writers and Authors...

I'm back to working on Crash-Morph today, of the Caffeinated Fiction series, determined not to miss my deadline tomorrow, unlike last week, ha. I admit, it's nice to be back to writing new words, although I'll be working on the paperback version of REVIK: ALLIE'S WAR, EARLY YEARS tonight, too, getting the format ready and so forth to make that available in paperback format. There also just seems to be a ton of publishing "stuff" right now, everything from cleaning up the metadata that's showing up on Amazon and not quite synching with Author Central to starting to think about audio books for the Allie's War series and some of the other things I have kicking around. I admit, the audiobook process is sloooow compared to what I thought, and even when I have a pretty motivated vocal artist. I may have to pace that whole thing out over time, just because it takes so friggin' long from beginning to end, and unfortunately I don't have the time to do it myself, either.

I would like to do the audiobooks for Allie's War though, if possible. Partly because I think it would be fun, and partly because I just haven't managed to find a vocal artist I really like for these. Whether or not I could pull it off is another story, of course, but if I ever manage to carve out decent time for this, I would love to try it.

Oh, and once I have completed the paperback for REVIK, I PROMISE I will do the giveaway I mentioned when I first released WAR: ALLIE'S WAR, BOOK SIX. Back then, I had wanted to wait on that until I had the paperback version of WAR released...now I have that finished and available, but I want to be able to offer paperbacks of REVIK, too, especially since I'm only releasing it on Amazon for the next three months in ebook form.

At this point, I'll have to wait until after the move to the Oregon Coast, which is next week...but hopefully not too long after. I plan to hit the ground running when I get up there, and since I don't have a ton of stuff to move at this point (one of the benefits of traveling for the past few years), I'm hoping to be straight back to work in a few days after I land. We'll see how realistic that is, haha...




Sunday, May 12, 2013

#NEWRELEASE: (ALLIE'S WAR) REVIK: ALLIE'S WAR, EARLY YEARS

Okay, well I have a surprise for everyone...a new novel in the Allie's War world, but not one of the main series arc. This is another of the Early Years novels (like New York), and ended up being a short novel instead of a novella or (hahaha!) short story, clocking in at around 43,000 words...

Here's the blurb, for those who are interested ~

Revik: Allie’s War, Early Years ~

Prior to meeting Allie Taylor in San Francisco in 2012, infamous seer and infiltrator, Dehgoies Revik, lived life as a Rook, as one of their most senior lieutenants. By 1974, he’s worked for Galaith for over thirty years, ever since he and Terian first pulled Revik out of that Nazi prison in Berlin, in 1942. Revik tells himself he’s helping his people, working for ‘the Org,’ as he thinks of the Rooks’ network these days. He believes it, too, until a strange female seer finds him in Vietnam and forces him to confront who he really is...and who he’s let himself become as a slave of the Dreng, (explicit material).


I decided to offer this one on Amazon only for the first three months, but it will be in wider distribution after that time, and I will be issuing a paperback in the next few weeks, too.

In the meantime, sorry Nook readers and others who don't use .MOBI files!! I'll make sure it's available to you as soon as possible. This is just part of me experimenting this year, seeing what works when I mix a few things up and try doing promos of different kinds to get the series a bit more visibility, (since I normally do pretty much, well, nothing, when it comes to marketing and related things, ha).

Here's the link on Amazon, for those who DO buy their books there...

Here's the cover (don't have the paperback one yet, so this is just the ebook) ~ 


Hope you enjoy it! This one was fun, and mostly takes place in Vietnam, right before the fall of Saigon, while Revik is still a full-fledged Rook and hanging out with his old pal, Terian...

Let me know what you think!


Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Advice on Art and Life from Mr. Harrison Ford...

So yeah, I'm lame...I blew by my Caffeinated Fiction day again. In truth, I got about 2/3rds of the chapter done, then got an attack of ADD for various reasons (some of which will be detailed below), and realized, somewhat belatedly, that I wasn't going to make my deadline and should postpone for next week.

In return, I offer you this fare, an experience I had on a whim yesterday, which was an opportunity to go see Harrison Ford being interviewed at the Kabuki Theater in Japantown, in San Francisco, as a part of the International Film Festival, which was honoring him with while he received the Peter J. Owens Award.


I admit, my reasons for this were somewhat complicated. I always like going to see successful artists speak. I always learn something, always...and they always generally have something about them, above and beyond whatever it is that made them famous. I truly believe that most people who "make it" in that big of a way have an unusual amount of drive, confidence, self-awareness, etc. Or, at least so far in my life, that's something I've witnessed whenever I've been lucky enough to see someone like that speak. They all bring their own personalities to that "thing," though, whatever it is, and I was intrigued, partly because I know almost nothing about Harrison Ford the man. He tried to buy a horse from a friend of mine once...and I went to UC Santa Cruz with his son...but we didn't exactly travel in the same circles, and I'd never run into him myself, or even seen him at a distance in the flesh, even when he was eating at a cafe in New York down the street from where I worked, and people were running down the street with cameras to get pictures of him and his lunch-mate, who happened to be Brad Pitt, (it was during the filming of The Devil's Own, back in 1995 or 1996, in which they were co-stars)

But yeah, all of that artistic stuff aside and the wanting to be inspired aside...he was also Han Solo, my one and only (serious) movie star character crush. Even in my somewhat gushy and pre-adolescent state, however, I think I understood pretty clearly that it was HAN SOLO I had a crush on, not the actual actor (although when Blade Runner came out, not too many years later, I think I had to wonder a little).

So yeah, when I had a crush on him, he looked more like this...


And this...


and, to a lesser degree, like this...


But, even though it was kind of funny listening to the two women behind me (who are even older than me, incidentally) make little happy noises and giggle like schoolgirls the second he walked out on stage...and the whole time they showed the tribute film (he was there to receive an award from the international film society that day, in addition to the interview)...and pretty much every time he smiled or opened his mouth...I ended up being inspired, almost in spite of myself.

I mean, yeah, I geeked out like a great big fan girl, too, albeit in my much more understated, grinning like a fool type way, but I also listened to what he had to say, and a number of those things stuck with me.

Two of them, I would like to share here.

One of those was spurred by a question from a woman in the audience, who asked, (and I'm seriously paraphrasing, although she said the 'L' word at least two or three times in her gushing question):

"You are lucky. How did you get so LUCKY Mr. Ford?"


I immediately bristled. Granted, this woman probably isn't the IMDB junkie that I am, where I need to look up every, single, solitary insignificant detail of a film or piece of work I like, including who wrote it, produced it, shot it, edited it, the acting credits of the cast, what other things the writer's done, and on and on (and on...).

But I couldn't help being annoyed as a fellow artist at how completely disrespectful the question was on a certain level. I mean, did she really not SEE that the guy wasn't nineteen when he got his big break? Or the really, really long list of things he did, in terms of small parts and so forth, before he got "lucky?"

I counted 23 screen credits on IMDB alone, including television, and including a lot of small parts, before he got "lucky," and over a period spanning eleven years (the first credit listed is 1966).

That doesn't include all of the other things he did BEFORE that, in his quest to get "lucky," before he managed to secure his very first screen credit. He mentioned at one point that he started acting at eighteen, got serious about it at nineteen.

His first screen credit? He was 24-years-old. That's a five-year gap, even just to secure that little bit part (in which he wasn't even credited, by the way...his first two roles, he is uncredited).

Which I think in acting years is like fifteen years times the five in regular-person time.

What was interesting to me, however, was how he answered the question. He didn't bristle at all, unlike me. Instead he gave a kind of patient smile, and said, "Yeah, I have been lucky." He then proceeded to talk about her actual question, which was HOW he got so lucky. He attributed some of that to timing, yes, and the opportunity to work with some great directors, etc.

He also, both directly and indirectly, attributed it to a very single-focused ambition...which I could definitely see in him as he spoke. He also said that that ambition still existed in him, and had never really dimmed that much. He'd given us a story earlier, about how he got the part of Branch Rickey in 42, his most recent movie, by "persuading the director," who hadn't initially wanted him for the part or thought he could pull it off...so I could definitely see indications of that continued ambition and focus.

But...and even more than that, although the two things seemed to be fairly closely related (and this he did state explicitly), he got "lucky" mainly through having a never-ending willingness to always be learning and trying new things. He was really clear about that, actually, and basically said that the only reason he was STILL in the game at his age, was that he was willing to take every single thing he did as an opportunity to learn more about the craft, and to get better.

Given that I basically got the exact same speech in the Character/Voice Workshop I attended in Oregon a few weeks ago, it was pretty cool to hear it reaffirmed by one of my idols...especially on a stage where I only sat about five yards from him (I kind of scored, in terms of seats), and that was jam-packed to the exits with fans of all ages, genders (there were a TON of men there, I was actually a little surprised by that, and they were as geeked out as the women).

So yeah, that was one.

The second thing also came out of the Q&A with the audience at the end.

Someone asked him,

"What's the best piece of advice you've ever gotten?" (again, paraphrasing)


His answer to this one surprised me somewhat, but also gave me the most reason for thought.

He mentioned advice of family and parents in passing, but then went on to say that the one piece of advice he'd received that really stuck in his head, he'd gotten from David Mamet, who he called "the smartest man in the universe."

Mamet told him, "Don't let them turn you into a thing."

Ford said he hadn't really understood the advice at the time, but that after he'd had a few more years and experiences under his belt, it grew more and more meaningful to him. He also said that he believed it applied not only to acting, but to pretty much every endeavor in life.

He interpreted Mamet's advice as thus...there will be a lot of people along your path that try to take what you do and make it "theirs." They will try to harness your ambition and turn it into something that benefits them, and that they can profit from, financially or otherwise. They will try to change it in the process, or persuade you to go for their own brass rings. You can't let them. The most important thing you have is the thing YOU bring to the party. You have to hold onto your own ambitions, and your own identity around what you are doing.

You can't let go of that just to get the approval of others, or because you think you need to in order to obtain work. In the long run, it will work against you. More than that, if you do that, you're lost.

(again, I'm paraphrasing, he said it much better than this...but yeah, no recording devices or pictures allowed, I'm afraid).

So yeah, this was something that really spoke to me. I mean, I've never been faced with it in the professional realm to the extent that Mr. Ford has (clearly), but all through my life, I've had people who wanted to use my energy, drive, ambition and ideas in service of their "thing," whatever that thing might be. It seems to me, there are people in the world who are always on the lookout for "people who like to make things," (as Mr. Ford described himself), so that they can get them to "make stuff" for them.

I don't mean this in a paranoid way or anything...most people who do this don't even realize they're doing it, and probably would be much, much happier if they went out and found their own stuff to make, but they don't know they've stopped trying. In any case, it's not about condemning those people so much as a reminder for those of us who DO like making things, and who have the drive, ambition, etc. to keep learning and keep on making things, that others will, at some point or another, try to take this energy and harness it for themselves.

I've had this come in the form of so-called "meditation teachers" who want me to work for their schools, in other writers who "can't seem to finish things but want me to 'help' them," in writers who want to workshop the hell out of (or simply co-opt) work I'm doing, because they're not doing enough of their own. I've gotten it from whole communities, for example when I was in India, and I got constant guilt-trips that I wasn't there "for them" instead of to write my own "trivial" books. I've gotten it from boyfriends who wanted me to give up writing so I could be a housewife or a mother to their kids...or even just because they knew my earning potential in corporate and wanted me to be bringing THAT home, instead.

I've had companies I worked for that have tried to throw more and more money at me in an attempt to channel that ambition into their goals and dreams (or, let's be real, their big, fat wallets).

All of these people, at one point or another, have gotten pissed off at me when I've said "no."

No, I won't marry you and have kids and give up writing. No, I won't take that promotion just because there's a huge paycheck attached to it. No, I won't stop writing novels and start writing about China and Tibet. No, I won't stop writing novels and write about your meditation school. No, I won't help you finish your book. No, I won't start publishing your work for you...I'm not a publisher, I'm a writer. No, I don't care if you want to pay me. No, I won't change my novel series, my story arc or my voice in order to make it closer to something you wish you had written. No, I won't sign a contract that gives you 15% of the profit of my books...in perpetuity. No, I won't go to law school, just so you can brag about me to your friends (sorry, Dad...love you, but no).

And no, I'm not going to just hand my life over to someone else, just because I want their "approval." I've gotten dinged pretty hard in terms of social status, because of a lot of these no's....and not only because I'm unmarried and childless at forty-three. I've lost money because of these no's, I've lost friends at times, and hugely pissed people off. I'm currently being stalked by someone two continents away because he won't accept one of these no's from me.

But damn, I feel pretty good, I have to say. Not in a 'screw you!' kind of way, not at all, but because I've made it this far, and so far, no one has managed to pull me off of what I love to do, despite the countless (seemingly) number of people who have tried in various ways, pretty much since I first started expressing myself in the world.

The thing I'm realizing is, people with real drive and ambition are relatively rare.

Oh, tons of people TALK about doing this or that or the other thing...but I know from the countless jobs I've had over the years that a great big chunk of people flat-out don't give a damn about any of that, not really. They want a nice life with a nice family and a job that doesn't stress them out too much or eat up too much of their free time. They want a boss they don't want to kill, but they don't want to work for themselves...the very idea gives them hives.

To be clear, I'm not cracking on these people AT ALL.

Some really good friends of mine fall into this camp, and I have nothing but respect for their intelligence, wit, charm, ability to friggin' RELAX, which I can never seem to do, and their devotion to family and friends and their communities. Some of them do a ton of volunteer work and help out their communities. Most of them are really lovely people, from all walks of life.

But the thing is, if you're a weirdo like me, and a lot of other professional artists I know, you have to tread very, very carefully when it comes to holding on to yourself when it comes to your work, especially if it's something that you'd be miserable if you ever gave it up. I know for me, if I lost sight of this part of myself (which I have for brief periods, here and there), I would be miserable. I was miserable, to the point where my life lost all meaning to me. It's still interesting to me, that the one thing people often like about me is also the one thing they often seem to want to co-opt, own, or simply take away.

In the words of a good artist friend of mine, the goal isn't to say, "F*** YOU!" to those people, but simply to smile and say, "No, thank you! I'm happy over here, doing my own thing."

And if they get mad at you for that, well...I guess they just get mad. It's not really your problem, honestly, as long as you're kind about it, and don't make it about them.

So, thank you, Mr. Ford. It was a very useful diversion for me...and something I guess I really needed to hear right now.

Apparently Mamet's words meant a lot to him, too, because I found this online while I was searching for the photos above, and it sort of summarizes the same basic thing...


Wednesday, May 1, 2013

#Giveaway for $25 Gift Certificate for Amazon - THE MORPH on The Reading Cat

Hey, just a quick fyi that I have a giveaway for a $25 gift certificate for Amazon going on, hosted by The Reading Cat, as part of the Orangeberry Book Tour for THE MORPH (Gate-Shifters #1).

Just an fyi for those who want to check it out...here's the link to the giveaway here.

Hope you enjoy, and good luck on winning for those who participate!

Final reminder on the discounted copy for ROOK: ALLIE'S WAR, BOOK ONE - only two more days at 99 cents before it goes back to full price on May 3rd!


Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Guest Post by JC Andrijeski ~ "5 Things I Wish I Knew About Being an Author" on The Bunnys Review

One more to put out there, a guest post I did for The Bunnys Review.

"5 Things I Wish I Knew About Being an Author"

Hope you enjoy!

I'm now heading back to my main work in progress, the novella about Revik in the Allie's War world (tentatively titled, Revik: Allie's War, Early Years). I'm writing outside today, since it's beautiful here right now and all of the birds are going crazy. I forgot just how many birds California has...wow. Compared to India it's pretty mind-blowing, the sheer number of them.

They definitely own the place around here, too.

Have a lovely day, everyone!


#Author #Interview - JC Andrijeski on Mommy Adventures with Ravina

I'm a little late in promoting this, just from being out of town at my brother's house for the weekend and babysitting and the like, but wanted to let people know there are a few new things out there for me and my books, for anyone who is interested...

The first is an author interview I did with Mommy Adventures with Ravina.

The text of the actual interview can be found here, for those who want to read it...

Hope you enjoy!


#CaffeinatedFiction 33: The #GateShifter Series: Ch6 "Lock-Mate...and Irene's Bad Timing"

And here we have the next installment of Caffeinated Fiction - a full chapter this time (woot!) since I had a chance to work on this for real last week. Things are a bit up in the air for me again, and I might be moving very soon, but I am hoping to continue this uninterrupted through those changes.

I will update more on that as it progresses...

In other news, I'm doing a mini-promo type event on the first book in this series, THE MORPH (Gate-Shifters #1) and will be posting more on that later today.

Oh, and for those who are interested who haven't gotten a chance to pick up a copy yet, ROOK: ALLIE'S WAR, BOOK ONE is still on sale for a few more days, only 99 cents before it goes back to its regular price of $4.99 on May 3rd. If your curious but weren't sure if you wanted to get a copy, grab it while it's on sale!

And I hope you enjoy this week's segment!

Usual Disclaimer for Caffeinated Fiction: This work contains adult content, including sexual situations, swearing and possibly even some actual (gasp!) sex. So...ye be forewarned! Otherwise, the usual things for a work in progress (WIP). There will be typos (definitely), maybe structural issues, continuity gaps, plot holes and whatever else. This is a rough draft, so really, it's just a big mental puke on electronic paper, (sorry for the visual). So if that kind of thing is going to drive you nuts, or make you grind your teeth excessively, I suggest you not read this sucker until it's gone through the editorial process and been made all nice and clean and pretty on the other side. :)


Chapter Six:
Lock-Mate...and Irene’s Bad Timing

I woke up that night to hands on me.

Nik hadn’t yet come back when I finally laid down to go to bed. I spent most of the rest of that afternoon going through the employee files and other information Jake and I grabbed from the modeling agency, and checking on the background of the agency’s employees. I sat in front of the television, files on my lap, the news on in the background, reporting the constant updates of the bombing blast without really telling us much at all. Irene sat with me, and I would hand the names off to her when I finished with them, knowing she could find out more with some of her people-search magic than I could.

As for me, I was pretty sure I would need to go back to that agency the next day.

I’d found a few things that I wanted to ask Ms. Constance Culare in person. Given the particular hornet’s nest she had me poking my finger into, I didn’t even want to talk to her on the phone, really. If these jokers thought she suspected what they were doing, or even what they’d done, they might have a tap on her already. Most of the sex-trafficking came out of the mob. A lot of it was Russian mob, too, and I didn’t want to mess with those guys at all...not unless or until I had a heck of a lot more firepower behind me, anyway. Even Gantry’s guys didn’t stand a chance with them. They were all KGB dudes who probably blowtorched toes for fun on the weekends, when they didn’t have anyone to torture for an actual reason.

Irene had already gone to bed by the time I gave it up for the night. Gantry, of course, had left hours earlier. I think I finally got ready to close my eyes around one a.m., and by then, I was practically hallucinating.

Even so, those hands woke me right up. 

I woke up more when his mouth fell to mine.

Heat shot into my chest, a sharp enough jolt to shock me a little, and to flip my eyes wide open. When they did, I saw Nik hanging over me in the dim light, illuminated faintly by the fish tanks on one side of Irene’s living room.

His skin looked pale in the greenish glow, but I found myself staring up at the lines of his chest and arms, feeling the view of him hit at me somewhere significantly lower down than my brain. A flutter started somewhere in my belly, and then his mouth descended down to mine once more, and we were kissing for real.

I barely noticed when he started undressing me.

Even so, thoughts continued somewhere, in the further reaches of my mind.

I found myself remembering the last time we really got into this, with Ledi watching us from the other end of the room. It occurred to me that we’d barely touched one another since then, apart from that brief make-out session next to that indoor park on his home planet, and that heat in my chest grew even more intense. Between the kidnapping and the almost-dying type things that had happened to us in the intervening days and weeks, we’d scarcely been alone at all.

His hand slid down my side, caressing me slowly until that feeling in my gut worsened, right before I wrapped my arms around his back, digging my fingers into the muscles just below his shoulder blades.

He startled me when I did it, letting out a low groan.

I fought not to remember how many other women he’d likely done this with while we were on Palarine. I fought to forget about the fact that he’d been sleeping with women on the ship for weeks, long before he asked me to tell him to cut it out...

“Stop.” Nik raised his head, panting down at me in the dark. He pressed against me, closing his eyes, letting out another low sound. His skin had warmed, and he sat astride me now, pinning me to the sagging mattress of the couch. “Stop it, Dakota...please...”

Hesitating only a second, I nodded, flushing a little. He must have felt my doubts and lingering misgivings through the lock connection we shared.

When he lowered his mouth to mine again, I found myself stroking his chest, feeling his heart beat under my palm as he pressed down against me. I felt increasingly intense flutters off him, too, even as his weight grew heavier, and then his hands were exploring me more deliberately, and he started shifting his body over me, moving so that he lay most of it directly on mine. I felt him press against my inner thigh and let out a half-startled sound, mixed with a gasp that held a longing that even I could hear.

My fingers curled into his hair, pulling him down to me again.

I’d wanted to do this with him. I’m pretty sure I’d wanted to as far back as the ship. Back then, I hadn’t even been sure Nik could have sexual feelings for someone like me, much less the will or ability to act on them.

I wanted you... he assured me through the implant, kissing my neck, parting his lips as he worked his way slower up to my jaw. I wanted you, Dakota, believe me...I’ve wanted you since I first saw you here, in Seattle...

My hands tightened on him more. 

I found myself looking down at his body as my eyes adjusted to the gloom, and realized he was still wearing pants. Within seconds, my hands found the front of them, and I was unhooking the button on the jeans he must have gotten from Jake, fumbling for the zipper to get them all the way undone. Nik pressed against me as my hand slid under his clothes, even as another, more intense shot of that liquid heat pooled somewhere in my chest, right around where I usually felt him through the lock connection we shared. Nik let out a low sound when I didn’t stop, then caught hold of the elastic on the fuzzy pajama bottoms I wore, probably the least sexy thing imaginable in my universe of not-sexy things, but what I’d been borrowing out of Irene’s dresser to sleep in since we got there.

Nik didn’t seem to much care about their lack of sexiness. 

He yanked them down unceremoniously, and I saw his jaw clench as he pressed against me again, right before he started working the pajama bottoms down past my hips and thighs, his hands practiced now, and dextrous enough to throw me a little.

I let out a low gasp when he had those off me entirely, and another one when he caught hold of me, jerking me against him once more, kissing my mouth.

Those misgivings were getting really faint at that point.

The feeling of him through the lock got stronger. I let out a low sound, wrapping my arms around his neck when he pulled me up, stretching me out more deliberately on the creaking mattress before he wrapped his body around the length of mine. His legs rested between mine then and he pressed his chest and weight on me deliberately, earning another low cry out of me. His fingers coiled around my wrists then, pinning me to the edge of the mattress. He looked down at me, struggling to slow his breathing, and it hit me suddenly that we were both more or less naked now, and that I could feel his skin pretty much everywhere.

He met my gaze, still panting lightly, his skin hot now.

“I’m going to do this,” he said. “Unless you don’t want me to, Dakota...I’m going to do this. Tell me not to, if you want me to stop...”

“No,” I whispered, conscious suddenly of Irene in the other room. “No, I want to. We just have to be quiet, Nik...okay?”

He nodded, but I saw a taut look cross his expression after I spoke. He kissed me again before I could second-guess any of it, and then his hands were on my hips, moving me under him until he had me where he wanted me. I found myself holding my breath, gripping his arms where I lay under him, when he stopped again, looking down at me.

“I want us to be monogamous after this,” he said.

I fought to control my breathing, looking up at him. “Aren’t we now, Nik?”

He frowned, but I felt another sharp dagger of heat hit my chest. It occurred to me only then that he was still holding it back, whatever ‘it’ was. I remembered him saying that sex with us ‘wouldn’t be as good’ with his lock closed. I also remembered that his lock was wide open now. 

I remembered telling him I loved him on Palarine, too, and that I didn’t want to come back to Earth without him.

That pain in my chest worsened, right before his fingers clenched on my upper arms.

“Gantry wants you,” he said. 

“What?” I stared up at him, incredulous, but Nik’s gaze didn’t waver. “Where the hell did that come from?” I said.

He went on as if I hadn’t spoken.

“...Don’t do this with him, Dakota,” Nik said. “I’m asking you. Please.”

I shook my head, massaging his chest with a hand. “Gantry and I aren’t sleeping together, Nik...you know that.”

“You were. Before.”

“Yeah,” I retorted. “And you were sleeping with half the female humans on Palarine before, too, Nik...”

He writhed under my hand, right before he shook his head. “You understand. I know you do. If you can’t tell me that, then I don’t want to do this, Dakota...I really don’t.”

I stared up at him.

As I watched his face in the near-dark, I realized he was right. I did. 

Understand, that is.

I knew how Nik saw the two of us. He’d been open about it, at least once we actually started talking about it in something other than his bizarre morph code-speak pertaining to relationships more generally. I’d also heard enough ‘wife’ cracks on Palarine...and even on the ship...to have some idea of how his culture viewed things with me and Nik, too. I was his lock mate. I knew that meant a lot to him, and to any morph, really...I just wasn’t entirely sure what it meant to me, or how I felt about the implications of that connection between us. Heck, I still wasn’t sure I really understood what those implications even were. 

Especially not here, in the context of being back home in Seattle, and more or less back in my old life.
Feeling him reacting to something he must have felt on me just then, while I was thinking about all of that, I gripped his arms tighter.

“I love you, Nik,” I told him, and I meant that, too. “You know I do.”

His eyes met mine. I could see them faintly in the blue-green light of the fish tank. I had no idea what color they were now, though, or what the stare meant.

His voice was gruff. “You love me,” he said. “But you don’t want to promise me that?”

Hesitating, I shook my head. “No, I don’t. Not yet. Not forever like that.” Watching his face, I waited for him to think about my words before I added more cautiously. “...It’s too soon for me, Nik. But I’m not fooling around with anyone else...and I won’t, okay? Not without telling you first. I just need more time, all right?”

I felt that hit him somewhere via the lock connection, too.

I couldn’t tell how, exactly, though.

“What about you?” I said, fighting to get the disappointment out of my voice. “Do you want to wait, Nik? On the sex, I mean. Would you rather wait on this end of things for awhile?”

He seemed to think about my words. While he thought, I couldn’t help picking up flickers of things through the connection we shared. I felt desire there, a frustration that he didn’t seem to be bothering to hide. I even caught a few glimpses of pictures in his head, most of them pretty graphic as he thought through what we’d been about to do, and if he was willing to wait. I didn’t say anything while he thought through the different implications of my question, and I didn’t try to figure out which direction he might be leaning before he spoke, but his words didn’t exactly surprise me when he finally got there, either.

“I really want to do this,” he confessed. “I’ve been having trouble sleeping, Dakota...”

“Sleeping?” I said, confused by that part for some reason.

“Yes,” he said pressing against me. “I want to have sex. I’ve wanted it for weeks now...months. It makes it difficult to sleep at times, Dakota...”

I felt my skin flush at his words, but more than that, at the increasingly graphic pictures that flickered behind my eyes as he said them...pictures I had to assume were coming to me through that line between us, at least in part. I felt that electrical-type charge running through my skin, that same sensation I remembered now from Palarine, the one and only other time we’d been wrapped around one another naked like this.

We hadn’t had sex that time, either...for a lot of reasons.

Not the least of which being that Razmun stood in the room while Nik and I made out that first time, probably watching us every second. Of course, we knew him as Ledi back then, and we actually believed him when he told us he wanted us to leave the planet for our safety following that terrorist attack on the Pharei Military Council.

I felt Nik’s indecision again, and that time, I felt a sharper pain from that jealousy, too.

“No,” he said suddenly, his voice gruff. “No, we shouldn’t.”

“Why?” I said, almost before I knew I meant to.

“You know why. I just told you why.”

“Because I can’t tell you for absolute sure I’ll never want to be with anyone else ever again?” I said, frustrated.

“Yes,” he said.

I sighed, in spite of myself. “Nik. Jesus...”

Before I could go on, though, the light flicked on. It caused both of us to jump violently, and then to stare at the person standing by the switch.

Irene huddled there, her hair looking like an angry, dirty-blonde cat screeched silently from her head. She wore a black, silk kimono that stopped around mid-thigh and had a bright red koi fish splattered like blood across the front. 

Irene blinked at the two of us, an openly bewildered look on her face as her eyes focused enough that she understood what she’d walked in on. I saw color creep up her neck to her cheeks as she took what must have been a pretty compromising snapshot of me and Nik, with him astride me, naked, and me lying below him, also naked, and gripping his biceps in my hands.

Despite the increasingly embarrassed look I saw crawling over her face, she still blurted out the words she must have come out there to say in the first place.

“Someone’s outside!” she said. “I saw them, in the tree!”


Before I could make sense of what she’d said, Nik was already on his feet.

He walked directly back to Irene’s room, still nude, I might add, while I hadn’t stopped fumbling around the rumpled blankets and mattress for my shirt.

By the time I found it, had it over my head and climbed off the creaking mattress, stubbing my toe on the metal frame and cursing while I hopped, Irene had already followed him back there, too. When I got into her room, she crouched behind Nik while he stared out her window. The light was off, either because Irene never turned it on, or because Nik turned it off so he could see better. I angled closer to him, pushing my hair behind my ears and waiting for my eyes to adjust after that sudden influx of light from Irene blinding us in the other room.

I couldn’t see anything.

Well, that’s not precisely true.

I saw the tree outside Irene’s window, and the thick, bald and winding branches that always made me think of that movie, Poltergeist, where the tree smashed through the window and then proceeded to yank the kid out of bed and try to eat him.

But I didn’t see anyone there.

Even as I thought it, Nik gave me a glance. Then, as if by mutual agreement, we both moved to the window itself, peering out into the darkness to the ground below. Irene followed behind both of us, clutching Nik’s arm as she peered from behind him.

I thought I caught a flicker of movement, and I saw Nik flinch.

“Did you see who it was?” I asked him.

He shook his head. Even so, his face looked more taut than usual. Staring at his expression, I felt my chest tighten, too. I looked at Irene, watching her stare out at the same dark, scanning the rose bushes that clustered at the base of the magnolia tree, as if expecting her peeping tom to still be in there, somewhere.

“You’re sure it wasn’t a dream?” I asked her.

She shook her head, looking back at me. “No,” she said. “I was already awake. I was reading. His face was pressed against the glass. He wore one of those ski masks...”

She trailed, maybe seeing something in my face. I did feel myself shudder a bit, too, in spite of myself. “Fantastic,” I muttered.

Nik continued to scan the view outside, as motionless as a statue, but for his eyes.

“Nik,” I said, my voice still low. “Where did you go today? When you left the house...where did you go? Did you go anywhere that Razmun and his people might have seen you?”

He hesitated, then shook his head. Glancing at me, he then made a more concessionary shrug. “Technically, yes,” he said. “...I was in a place that they could have seen me. But even if they did, they wouldn’t have known who I was.”

“Why not?” I said.

“I did not go in human form.”

“You didn’t?” Irene said, wonder in her voice.

I ignored her words other than to grimace a little. I kept my eyes on Nik.

“What form did you go in?” I pressed.

“A bird,” he said at once, glancing at me. His eyes looked light in color under the faint light from outside, despite the pupil swallowing the iris. “...Bald eagle, I am told it is called,” he added. He held out his arms in a kind of swooping gesture. “A sea bird. Brown wings and body...white head. Hooked beak. Feathers. Talons. Raptor classification, according to your world...Haliaeetus leucocephalus.

At what must have been a blank expression on my face, he explained further, 

“...I have been practicing Earth species, to give me a wider range of movement, if needed,” he said. “Gantry has been assisting me in this...he thought it would assist in camouflage.”

I swallowed, not sure what to say to that.

When I glanced at Irene, she was staring up at Nik’s face, wide-eyed, that wonder still visible in her eyes and expression. She was still clutching one of his bare arms in both of her hands, too. I had an urge to tell her to let go of him, but suppressed it.

“So?” I said, hands on my hips, which were now more or less covered by the long t-shirt. “Where did you go as this eagle, Nik?”

“I went to see the bombing,” he said, as if it was the most logical answer in the world. “I went to follow Razmun...to discover where they are hiding.”

I felt the blood drain somewhat from my face. “Seriously?”

“Yes,” he said, looking at me. Puzzlement crept over his features. “Why would I not do this? He gave us an open opportunity to see where he was, by being on that news program. It is better for us to know where they are...and how close they are to finding us, yes?”

“And how close are they, Nik?”

He sighed a bit, giving me a somewhat frustrated look. “I don’t know.” That more distant veneer fell from his voice, and I found myself blinking at him, remembering glimpses of a more intense side of him I knew on Palarine. “...I do know where some of them are staying now, though,” he said. “As I suspected, it is not in the city. I followed them back to a set of structures on a piece of open land at the base of the large mountain you can see from the city...”

“Mount Ranier?” Irene ventured.

He glanced down at her, as if remembering she was there. 

“Yes,” he said. “I believe that is right. The structures are in a field there, near a large forest of trees. There are animals there, too...and a small lake.” Nik gave me a grim look. “They might have killed the previous occupants, I do not know. Most of the morph we arrived with seem to be living there, however. They also appear to be attempting to make their colony self-sufficient in various ways...and separate from the human residents nearby...”

But my mind remained pretty one-tracked. 

“Could they have seen you, Nik?” I said again.

“No,” he replied. He squinted back out the window, scanning the dark lawn filled with dandelions and crab grass in Irene’s unkempt backyard. I followed his eyes to a further line of trees, and a wooden picket fence that separated Irene’s yard from the one next door. Nik’s expression had gone unreadable once more. “No, I do not think so,” he added. “I do not think Razmun’s people were here tonight, in any case...”

“You don’t?” I said, sharper.

“No.” He shook his head, once, giving me another direct look. “They would have gone about this differently. They have no need to peer in windows at night, Dakota.”

“You’re sure, Nik?”

“Somewhat sure, yes.”

I watched him stare out the window for a few beats more. I gritted my teeth a little at his answer, though, annoyed that he’d started to pick up all of my qualifying adjectives while using English. Not sure what ‘somewhat sure’ meant to Nik in this context, I decided to let that go, too.  For now, anyway. 

Until I got a chance to talk to Gantry about what Nik found out.

I followed his eyes out to that dark, still trying to quell the nerves that vibrated my limbs. I couldn’t tell if I agreed with him or not, but what he said made sense. Why would a bunch of morph bother with peering in windows if they could make themselves into birds like Nik and watch us come and go from a tree in broad daylight? 

Anyway, why wouldn’t they just grab us outright, once they knew where me and Nik were? 

The thought made me shiver a little, truthfully.

Even if he was right about it not being Razmun’s people out there, it didn’t exactly ease my mind, not if what Irene saw was real.

It couldn’t possibly be a coincidence, Irene having a peeping tom now.

“No,” Nik agreed. “That seems highly unlikely.”

For a long moment, the three of us just stared out the window into the dark. The only sound came from our breathing, along with the wind, which pulled the tree’s branches to lightly scratch paint off the outside of the house.

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End of segment - To Be Continued Next Week